May 27, 2013 – It must be because it’s my birthday?! OR, I was just really unlucky?!

So today is my birthday, i was excited to go to work, and open my FB… but then….

As I was on my way to work this morning, and as i was riding a jeepeney along Pedro Gil, a man hopped on with his rag, crawling his way while wiping everyone’s feet, including mine. And after doing so, he opened his right hand and asked for alms.

It's more fun in the Philippines

My ride going to my work – not exactly, but this is the kind of jeepney i rode this morning!

When nobody gave him anything, and as i saw their faces, and everyone’s reaction, like as if, he is a criminal or something, i was observing the man, and i can definitely see that he is really disappointed & pissed. And i’m not gonna deny, I felt kinda threatened a lil’ bit too, and so, i grab my bag tightly, gave him a way, since he is about to go down, i was thinking that he might do something cruel to someone, by the way he move, but before he went down, he looked at me and asked for money as well.

I looked at him, and shook my head, that unfortunately I have nothing to give to him as well. And I must be the most unluckiest person in that jeepney! As the man step his way out, he STOMPED at my feet so HARD… and to my surprise, I DIDN’T FEEL ANY PAIN AT ALL! I had a VERY VERY LATE REACTION with what he did, I must stunned, by what just happened, and my intuition was then again right. He did something cruel, but it was ON ME! Probably because it is my birthday today?! How can the guy knows that?! ha! ha! “Happy 25th Cza!” Anyways, as I looked at him, thinking he might not mean to step on my foot, but when he looked back at me, that’s the only time i realized he is definitely MAD. I felt sad for him, and i didn’t feel angry at all.

So i just smiled, laughed it out inside my head, while everybody’s concerned about my feet, and i was like, “It’s nothing. Because, him, stomping on my feet is nothing compare to what kind of pain he is going through right now.” Because, come to think of it that some people must have trampled with his personality, reviled him, and stomped his ego as well.

So I do realized, at that point that, he acted based on his emotion. His hurt, no one gave importance to him, not even I, [so i probably deserve it too]. I do understand where the man is coming from, it must be very difficult for him to survive as well, because he is being judge by EVERYONE. We don’t know the story of the guy, we don’t know where he really came from… and we don’t know what happened to him.

Sino ba nmn di mababaliw sa GUTOM?! Sino din ba nmn ang hinde mag aalburoto pag gutom ka na, ala ka pang pera, tapos manghinge ka, ala pang magbibigay?! I was just thankful that he only stomped at my feet, and gave me something to think about and write about. And he made me realize that PAIN IS INEVITABLE, but it will mold you into a better person one day, and Stomping on my feet and i, feeling no pain at all just made me think that even other people may hurt me, stomp at my ego, or judge me, I will not be knocked down nor stay low! I will stand up again and do it again if i must and i will be BETTER! And i will prove you i am NOT who you think i am!

Happy 25th Birthday!

Happy 25th Birthday!

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The perks of being a Sales

So the perks of being a sales person… U get to go to places, meet and KNOW people, and the best part, sometimes they will even give you freebies! [wether food or GCs, it’s so gratifying!]

Today was like nothing compare to the other visits i made this past month. I felt like a warrior child going out in the wild for the first time. Feeling, a lil’ bit anxious, but still eager to do and accomplish the task.

One of my favorite places in Manila is Quezon Ave. Why? Simply because it has so much entertainment! Clubs, Comedy Bars, Restos, media and all that glitters!

Anyways, i would just like to share my experience today [05/14/13 – now this looks like a diary, ahaha! Whatever!], visiting Q.AVE gave me the opportunity to visit UP DILIMAN. And I had never, ever, set foot in the University before. Though my father often times passed by the area whenever we try to visit one of our relatives along QC, and telling me stories about the place and how he used to live near the campus during his youth, it is still different from being able to walk around UP! I always wondered how it looks like. And I owe it all to my Job!!! [Bravo!!!]

UP Diliman

University of the Philippines – Diliman

Well, I had been to UP Los Baños and UP Manila, but never been to UP Diliman. I went to “Bahay ng Alumni” to visit one of the Travel Agencies who use to book with us [Happy Travel & Tours Corp.]. Discussed regarding hotel booking and our online B2B system. And i swear, i wanted to take pictures, but I felt so embarrased. hahaha! Well, maybe next time.

But actually one of my frustration is to be able to join any UNIVERSITY TOUR within Manila. Like going to Ateneo, La Salles, UP, Lyceum and even though this is my alma mater UST, i still wanna go back! Heard that the new gym is already done with the construction, and last time I’ve been there… it was still partially polished.

I don’t know why, but not all people get the chance to go from one University to another. U get to experience and discover the history of education in the Philippines. And History is one of my favorite subject!!!

Tae kwon do <3

Taekwondo

“Everybody needs a hobby… and mine is when I start wearing these uniform… Sijak!!!”

I tried to navigate my mind away from all the negative thoughts i had been experiencing lately… and I came across my old Taekwondo Uniforms and I somehow felt excited wearing it all again!

I am now teaching taekwondo to little kids, and i get to share my experiences with them, i teach them but somehow, i also learn from them… very exciting indeed! I am actually planning to get a course on being a Taekwondo Instructor… so even though i am conducting the training now, i am also doing my own training with them. It’s a fun thing to do to get closer to your students too… I love this sports and i grew up with it. I am happy to be able to do this up to now.

Though my body is in so much pain again, due to muscle pain, it’s all worth it, just thinking that i finally be able to do what i love most… 🙂

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Hiding my Heart away <3

I met a guy, who blew my heart away
It was the time when I was at my worst
He made me forget, all my pain
and really made me feel so happy.

searching

Searching

How I wish I could lay down beside him,
And wake up with his warm embrace
But it feels so impossible…
For now I have to hide

I let my heart fall for the trap
It was over, I was over him
‘till he came… and kissed my lips
He claimed the darkness of my heart

I felt so vulnerable
Lost in the midst of the game
Being with him made me feel so safe
But I am weakened by his touch

I want to scream
I want to run
I want to cry
I love him

tears

wanting…

It hurts the way he looks at me
It burns that I need to hide my heart away
He’s the only one I want
And I want to be his one and only

I promise to make him happy
There’s nothing that I won’t do for him
I can be that one person
Who can make all his dreams come true

But Does he ever think of me?
The way I think of him?
Does he ever feel the same way I feel for him?
Does he need me? Does he care?

I always want to ask these questions
But I feel so scared to hear his answers
How can love taste so bitter..?
Why can’t it start sweet?

Longing...

Longing…

I feel scared that he’ll leave me
But the only reason why I feel this way….
It’s because of all the things that we’ve been through…
The laughter, and the pain…

Friendship,

LOVE.

I love him!

Desperately Frustrated

Thinking of you

Chasing love

I feel so different now
I feel like i wanna see you
like i wanna touch you
hug and kiss you

I just wanna know
what will you do
what will you think
how will you act?

I just can’t read your mind
tell me now, do you like me too?
please don’t get me wrong,
if i get too playful on you

cause all i really want
is your lips pressed against mine,
slow phase, sweet kisses
stares flaring like fireworks

Love me, Hold me, caress me…
I love you! And i need you to know,
that i always have and always will…
never forgetting, never regretting.