This write up has something to do with how I perceive things on my own perspective with the help of some of the most important people in my life right now, in finding what I really want to do for the next coming days.
thinking about it sooo d@mn hard!
Let’s go back to the time where I dreamt of having my own gym. Having my own café and the dream of travelling the world. It was the prime of my life when I dreamt of those things and fulfilling it. I was in 2nd year college when I started thinking of having my own gym one day, which was the time where I got a first taste of my own money from teaching taekwondo. It felt so cool, being a coach, especially you’re a female and you are teaching taekwondo, earning for yourself. I said to myself, I wanna be like my coaches someday. I observed, listen and applied all the things I learned from them during those times. I didn’t even let sickness get in the way. For the love of the sport I didn’t care.
But right after that year, everything had changed. I was so down about myself, I lost all the confidence I had for the past 8yrs. I was not used loosing; it was so hard to accept. That even myself I lost it. I feel like I so fail my mentors and all the trainings were useless. I felt so weak. Good thing I do have college friends who was there to help me and was there to make me happy. They all serve as my wall when I feel like falling. And when I was in third year that’s the time when I started dreaming on having my own café instead. Since I was an HRM student, why not start something relevant to my course? But that dream was short lived as well. First, I don’t have that much savings and assets to risk. Secondly, it definitely needs full time commitment and so much effort to establish that kind of business.
Then I remembered the very first day I step foot at the UNIVERSITY OF SANTO TOMAS for my interview, when I was asked: “Why did you choose the course, HRM?” I remembered one of my answer was: “Because I want to travel the world.” Moving forward, I was able to travel, but not around the world, but alteast close to it, so now I realized, I already had a start in fulfilling my dreams. So WHY STOP NOW?! Not to boast but I’ve been to Atlanta Georgia, Los Angeles, Cambodia, Thailand and Laos. Not bad.
I already said this to a friend of mine, that as of today, I have so many plans and I still don’t know where to start. Probably because I am anticipating things before this year ends. There were things I am unsure of and I am still observing my environment. Not sure if this is a good thing, cause to be honest, inside me, something’s telling me to start it NOW. But my always question is, WHERE shall I start and HOW?! Ever had that moment in your life where in you reach the crossroads and you don’t know where to go? So you stop, looked around and you notice that all the roads are leading to your dreams and you want to take those entire journey at the same time? But unfortunately you can’t, because you only need to choose one.
I just had a discussion with my father today, and I told him everything, and even my coach said the same thing. “Start small. One at a time Cza, one at a time! Because, you can always go back and start with the others when everything is already said and done. Once you already established one dream, move on to the next” Prioritize only one for now. Like my favorite number: ONE! Now I know the significance of my fascination with that number. To remind me to focus on ONE, and multitask to finish the plan and put it into action. I know how creative I can be and I know what kind of perfectionist I am. I just need to establish something first and then I will make my move.
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